Dream Shopping and Saying No to Work

Dream Shopping

You should first know that I have the dreams of a crazy person.  Lately, they have been extra crazy and I remember so many of them that I wake up feeling like I never got any rest because I was so busy in my dreams.  I woke up a couple days ago with this feeling of guilt.  It took me a minute, as it always does, to separate my dreams from reality.  Usually, it’s a relief to get back to reality.

I was feeling guilty, because in my dream, I had gone on a shopping spree.  I don’t remember any of the fun of it—just that I spent hundreds of dollars on clothes.  And then I had the thought, before I even woke up, “Why did I do that?”  I was particularly troubled that I would no longer be able to say that I had a perfect record in this journey of not giving into temptation.  Not that that is strictly true anyway, but as time has gone on, I’ve gotten even better about not spending money on non-essential things.

I think my reaction was, “Why did I do this?” because dream shopping didn’t bring me a feeling of satisfaction and even in my dream, I didn’t expect it to.  That’s a change, for sure.  I’m happy to say that I’m still on track and not for the sake of being perfect, but because I saved myself from doing something I’d now regret.

Saying No to Work

I said in my original plan that I wouldn’t say no to paying work, but that was before I was promoted at my second job and started working there 15 hours a week instead of 3-5.  That was also before my full time job became a year round position (instead of 9 months a year).  That was also before I realized how much happier I am in my two current positions than I was doing side research jobs.

This is my way of saying that I was offered some work yesterday and I’m going to say no.  The work itself I’ve done before and it’s annoying and stressful for not enough money.  I knew the offer was coming and I’ve been planning to say no, but now I am hesitating.  Mostly because my professor offered it to me with a heavy dose of flattery and apparently that goes a long way with me.  But, I’m going to say no, because a few hundred dollars is not worth the stress this job would add to my Summer.